Something New For My CV
º The DSM (psychiatry’s Bible) came out with a revised and updated version in 2013 with oodles of controversy. Along with weird restructuring, the Powers that Be (think Nicene Council with...
View ArticleUnboxed
The Darkest Hour is Just before the Box Pops Open. —Ancient Feline Proverb • Last Thursday was the third day in a row of fighting suicidal thoughts. Fantasies of death consumed me. My therapist...
View ArticleLife on Speed
Say No to Drugs. That’s been my mantra for the past five years. After trying every psychotropic pharmacology had to offer, which either had no effect or made my bipolar symptoms worse, I chose to...
View ArticleDo Superheroes Get PTSD?
Several Teesha stamps on this card One of the items on my IPR Bucket List is to attend a Teesha Moore art retreat. I found Teesha years ago when I first started using rubber stamps. Hers were grungy,...
View ArticleMy Life on Speed—An Update
Almost four months ago, I started treatment for Binge Eating Disorder. Basically, that consisted of taking an amphetamine, journaling about the changes in my compulsive thoughts and eating, visiting...
View ArticleDrama, Magic and Miracles
It seems almost sacrilegious to not have any drama in my life. I’ve even lost count of how many weeks I’ve been symptom-free—six or more I’m thinking. And to not worry about what I eat, or even...
View ArticleTraveling
I haven’t posted much lately because it’s been scary inside my head. There’s a fine line between sharing my practice of bipolar disorder and giving voice to the blackest symptoms. When self-loathing...
View ArticleSafe in Jane Austen’s Arms
Thanks to everyone who offered an opinion about whether A Mind Divided stays or goes. Honestly, I wasn’t fishing for compliments, but holy crow! They just kept jumping out of the water! If I thought...
View ArticleNext?
My computer is in the hospital, gasping its last, I fear. So I’ll try to create a post with my phone. Technology–heh, heh–ain’t it sumthin’? I finished the outpatient program and am trying to figure...
View ArticleI Must Be Getting Better…
…because I have no more fucks to give. Oddly, my bipolar and binge eating symptoms hibernated while I was sick with bronchitis, sinus and ear infections (Can my body not multi-task? Is my brain too...
View ArticleChallenging the Truth
My therapist and I finished the program specific to PTSD in Seeking Safety by Lisa M. Najavits. Some of it was good, some lame, but one particular exercise moved my whole life in a different...
View ArticleAt The Dig Site
I knew this wouldn’t be easy. Lose Weight. Such a simple sentence. And it’s everywhere—magazines, TV, grocery stores, billboards, New Year’s Resolutions, the breath passing through many lips. The...
View ArticleAnother Train
So, nobody said I was particularly wise. In my desperation to tame the Binge Eating Disorder beast, I regularly cycle around to doing stupid things—things I know in my adipose-caked heart won’t work....
View ArticleEmma and the Leaky Gut
While this may sound like a new Judy Blume novel, it’s really just my latest batch of experiments. In August, when I met with my Case Manager, I was a bit weepy about the verdict of my pulmonologist...
View Article
More Pages to Explore .....